I realize today that I've spent a year forcing myself to think about everything in my life. I know I've spent a great deal of time focusing on dating, my career, where I live, how much I work out, what work out I do ... Everything. I'm so happy I'm taking the time and energy to process things and internalize them. But the biggest thing I've learned is to take it all in, learn from it, and then just let it go. I've made lots of changes in my life over the past year, but I've really just reaffirmed what makes me happy and tried to find the path to be there. A year ago when I started this mission, I was incredibly unhappy. I remember sitting on a city bus on a rainy Chicago day explaining to one of my best friends from college, I'm going to fix my life by running. Thank God she didn't think I was crazy, I may have never done this. I couldn't figure out why I was so unhappy, and it was probably a million things happening in my life all colliding together. I'm 19 miles from the end goal, and I honestly don't think much of that has changed. The only difference now is that I've learned somehow not to let if affect me. Crap will always be a part of life, but instead of holding onto it, you can acknowledge it, forget it, and move onto something that will make you happier.
The less I've focused on things that upset me, and more on things that make me happier I've learned to shift my mood. Nothing has ever changed my attitude as quickly as a long run and a good smoothie. Two things I rarely did before this year started. In the beginning I felt like I was trying to convince myself to be happier, and now I feel like I know exactly how to do it.
348 Miles Down 19 Miles to Go
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